Remembering Ronda

When I was a kid we lived in Ronda, a small town in Southern Spain, for a year.

As small towns go, it’s pretty famous, perhaps not least for English speakers by being immortalized in The Story of Ferdinand, by Munro Leaf, and illustrated by Robert Lawson –

I’ve been tinkering around with this year we lived in Ronda, wondering if I might write something about this period, as it has a kind of “time out of time” feeling in my memory – a year when I was still sort of half American, half Canadian, but might conceivably become a whole new thing, a Spanish girl who went to the nuns school around the corner and wore their goofy gingham uniform and had a little kitten called Eduardo.

As projects go, it’s also kind of easy to research, and even on Google Maps it has barely changed –

Here’s the entrance to our apartment up on the second floor, looking pretty much exactly the same, although it looks like they keep the heavy wooden doors open rather than closed, and somebody got rid of the boulder in the lower right from my picture – sensible. I have a faint recollection that the boulder served a function back in the day, but I wouldn’t swear to it.

My bedroom when I was 10 was up there on the right with the red trim, above the main doorway the master bedroom had that little balcony, and then the left side was part of the living room dining room area. I wonder if the inside has changed at all.

Anyway, maybe a block or two away were our neighbours Hilly and Alastair who were a ton of fun, and we spent plenty of time over there – they were Brits, amongst the many ex-pats hanging out in Spain at the time, and I suppose they were the perfect drinking buddies for Dad, and it was a great place for me too, as there were kids around and Hilly was a blast, always cooking up a storm or taking me horseback riding, and they had lodgers like Dan who had a room with a ping pong table in it that was so tight it was kind of up against the walls, and you had to suck in your stomach to be able to play, but it was nonetheless about the coolest place in town.

Now I do remember that it was the “palacio” – that series of squirrely rooms where Hilly and Alastair and Dan and the ping pong table lived, and it seems perhaps Hilly and Alastair may have run something called Casa Mondragón – a kind of hodge podge ex-pat rooming house maybe owned by Alastair that had yet to be reclaimed by the town and turned into what it is now, which is the formal tourist attraction of the Palacio Mondragón –

But in all of this are these various side trails of research and maybe fragments of memory that can be followed further, as Hilly was in fact, the mother of Martin Amis (and ex-wife of Kingsley Amis, and mother of several others as well, but I do remember a conversation between Dad and Hilly about the suddenly famous son, and if I look into the timing of that, Martin had probably published the Rachel Papers just the year before we arrived). But Martin is helpful for me because later he wrote Experience, and in it he talks about Hilly, and he says: “…There were many reasons why my mother loved living in Spain, not least of them being that you could, in most pharmacies, buy speed over the counter”. Which certainly does help flesh out my sense of Hilly as an indefatigable ball of totally fun energy, leading me on horseback up and down the hills around town.

But in thinking back on the more visceral kinds of memories one carries, I do remember some interesting things about diet and teeth. Like I remember many of my school friends would have pan con chocolate at lunch – essentially a chocolate bar wedged into a small short loaf. Coming from Toronto, I didn’t even know that level of hedonism was “allowed”.

Amis is not particularly kind on this front, but I see where he’s going –

It struck you, or it struck me, that Ronda was a place that had yet to experience dental self consciousness. Many a perfectly moulded visage would unreservedly open out to you – revealing a bag of mixed nuts or, more typically in Andalucia, a bag of mixed nuts and raisins.

At some point, I’d been invited to sleep over at Maria del Carmen’s house, and she lived in the last house on the road that led out of town.

And I think it might have been the morning after when I stood in the large, airy, essentially rural courtyard of her home, by the lavadero in the middle of everything – as I guess they didn’t have little private bathrooms – so I stood there putting toothpaste onto my toothbrush, and it was as if the entire family stopped to look at this eccentric behaviour of toothbrush and toothpaste to marvel and say, “what the heck is that?”

Lens-Artists Challenge – Memories

First thing

Morning on the balcony the other day, and the first thing I noticed was that a fellow had gone through the break in the fence and was digging around in the scrabbly dirt.

For a couple of summers now, as the site sits empty, we’ve fantasized about and throwing sunflower seeds or wildflower seeds in there to get a field of colour rather than the bleak dust of it, but I think the truth of the matter is there’s more pebble than soil, as even the weeds that have started to grow here and there around the edges only get so far.

So I wondered what exactly was he up to in there? I imagined a scientist taking soil samples to measure quality, or toxicity levels, something…

And then he stood and went towards a pile of random junk against the fence, and a bunny rabbit shot out from somewhere inside the stacked stuff, and froze.

If I don’t move, you can’t see me.

He’s a tiny dot there, to the right of the man, by the first bend in the fence. I went inside to get my DSLR, but alas all batteries were dead, so I was stuck with only the phone camera, waiting to see what would happen next.

Well, not so much, it turned out.

After some moments of observing the bunny from where he stood, the man slowly went back to scrabbling around in the dirt, and the bunny stayed frozen in his spot. They each did their thing without interfering with the other.

It made me think of some drawings I’d been working on recently, based on bunnies in the neighbourhood, and / or the idea that bunnies live in this ultra-urban neighbourhood and how stressful it must be for them, the highway, the cars, the bikes and scooters, the rotating base camp across the street.

How often are they in the if I don’t move, you can’t see me response?

Lens Artists Challenge – The First Thing I Thought Of

A cinematic day

The day began with breakfast for two at the famous dumpling place on Spadina, and the fortune in my cookie said something stern about <<mettre de l’eau dans son vin>> and as we pushed through the doors and out into the street we debated the meaning of this, the translation, but also the intention of the saying, was it about making concessions, adjustments, or was it about making do with less?

Wandering through Kensington Market, my friend started telling me about a new practice she’s exploring called “Access Consciousness” and how she’s been given a series of questions to ask herself throughout the day – questions like “who does this belong to?” which you ask slowly, repeatedly about emotions, reactions that come up, but then also the question “how does it get any better than this?” which you ask yourself again and again and again, relaxing into all of the truth of the moment and wondering if it possibly could…

HOW does it get any better than this?

How does it get ANY BETTER than this?

How does it get any better than THIS?

This wonderful, meditative question reminded me of the way I feel when working on the 100 Day Challenge I’ve been doing for a couple of months now – it’s purposely not too ambitious, only about the joy of the thing, focused on the simple pleasures of paper, maybe pencil, maybe some watercolours, but who knows, maybe some charcoal depending on the day, depending on the creature, the image.

Seated Hare – charcoal, white charcoal, and watercolour on paper

This week, I am writing about noticing. About paying attention. About exploring what the Universe is telling us. This journey can be both arduous and joyful. It is certainly worthwhile.

Begin here

Paying attention is key to any artistic or life pursuit. It’s how we use all our senses. When we pay attention, we see patterns we otherwise would miss. We hear the chimes of the Universe, taste more intensely, let smell spark memory.

Touch

The most elemental of the senses for artists, even more than sight or hearing, is touch. It is how we relate to our materials. We touch the keyboard, the pens, the yarn, the paint, the fabric, the fragile silk of an emerging flower. Touch the sensitive place behind the ear, the pulse point of understanding.

~ Fran Gardner for The 100 Day Project

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Many blocks further up into Little Italy on such a beautiful sunny day and we sat in the park for what seemed like days, catching up on so many things, but here and there remembering that beautiful question, until it was time to pee so we headed out through a little pathway that had been beaten out amongst some trees and oooo’d and aaaa’d over the little fields of bluebells giving a colourful shape to the path.

How does it get any better?

Up at my friend’s beloved familiar home, we ended up on the back porch as is always the case on a gorgeous spring day, and it was still too cool for the cherry blossoms to have started on the huge cherry tree that dominates the back yard, but I noticed all the textures in little corners of collected objects, of aging wood against cut glass and burnished metal and porous ceramics.

Oh how I miss these kinds of textures that we had everywhere back in the days when we lived in a funny little house with a splendid back yard and a pond and an orange cat and a crumbling wooden fence and moss covered bricks.

After a trundle down Parliament in a busy crowded bus it was getting dark by the time I got to my brand spanking new neighbourhood of concrete and steel and glass, with no gardens, no aging wood or porous ceramics, but lo and behold, there are still moments of magic when the fog from the lake creeps up at dusk and the skies simply couldn’t get any better…

Lens Artists Challenge – Cinematic

All photos apped out with an early version of the Waterlogue app